Unchained melody indeed...

Ive been watching this video all week, and Ive cracked up EVERY single time much to the disgust of my roommates :) I must be losing it no?

Sorry, cant let you answer that:)

But nonetheless....

In a strange land far far away, there once lived a little mermaid called Lily. Lily was lonely and sad because she did not have a sea to live in. She wandered far and wide searching for her sea. Pools of water, rivers and streams beckoned to her but she wanted only her sea.

Quite suddenly, she stumbled upon a really beautiful sea. The sea seemed too good to be true.  It was  kind  and warm and had everything Lily could ever want. She was really excited. Eagerly, she ran to the sea and made friends with it. The sea totally adored Lily, and they had a great time being with each other. It was the happiest she had ever been.

The sea invited Lily to come and live in it but for some reason Lily was hesitant. She preferred to stay outside the sea and just talk to it instead. The sea could not understand why Lily felt this way.

One day was a terrible thunderstorm. Lily was scared and ran to the sea but the sea was horribly harsh.

But I always am rough during thunderstorms. I cannot really help it...

In the calm before the storm, what did Lily see but sharks in the sea..Many many bloodthirsty sharks...She was petrified...Eyes wide with fear, she asked the sea about the sharks....

Oh they wont hurt you...they belong to me, they have lived with me forever.....

Lily believed the sea and she stepped into it for the first time....

We dont want you, you are not one of us...spat the sharks, and chased her out....there was blood and tears everywhere....

The sea was puzzled....the sharks have never bitten anyone before,  you mustve done something to annoy them.....

Ive done nothing....cried Lily, wringing her hands, but the sea did not believe her.....

Can you tell the sharks to leave me alone? ....she asked 

I cant do that...I cant upset my sharks...Dont you have my love? Isnt that all you need? Sharks will be there in every sea...

But it hurts to to be bitten...and I dont deserve to be hurt for no reason....said Lily...

Well, if you have to be here, you have to tolerate the sharks, my dear...its the only way you can live in this sea......

Lily could not understand it....but she understood only too clearly her place in the life of the sea....

and so there was Lily, lonely and sad once again...

P.S. Dont ask me what this damn story means, Ive no idea. Its just  a dream Ive had like a million times!

Not here, not now.....not ever!

I'd written this some months back, but didnt feel like posting it then...

If we were caveman and cavewoman, we wouldve grunted approvingly at the same dinosaur carcass, never mind the imagery!

Thats when I knew he & I could be friends. Here was a guy who made me laugh....In about half an hour, we felt like old friends, it was that easy...

We actually met through this blog. He even lasted through the whole of it (he is evidently made of stern stuff ) and we got talking. Now I wasnt attracted to him or anything, I really wasnt....but this guy seemed incredibly nice, had a good sense of humor, was really interesting to talk to...and his blog was simply amazing......and after months of having no one to talk to and using my phone just as an alarm, it seemed it could have messages I could look forward to again...somebody would actually care to ask if I  reached home safe....I might even wake up with good morning messages again ...I would have somebody to call whenever I felt like, someone who would genuinely love to hear from me....

Now I'm not as stupid as you think though I tend to get carried away by a kind word, and this learning from mistakes is something my pea-brain is capable of.....and as immodest as I may sound, my little brain is fast... if you call six hours fast...and I call it fast...when compared to  say, a year or two...anyways, so when he called back at 2 am after a 4 hour talk just to say he missed me, my brain decided to do something it hasnt before...to pull the plug, and set off the alarm and call the cops....

You see, we had gtalked for 2 about hours asking each other loaded questions like colors or shades? ...and there are very few people I can last on gtalk with....and fewer for more than an hour...and only one person for more than 2 hours....no really, there is only one....so we chucked gtalk and and spoke for about 4 hours...now you get the six hour logic?...and as amazing as the conversation was,  I decided it was long enough....

Why? Because I wasnt feeling "that way"...and I knew I wont  either...blah blah....so my intelligent and considerate suggestion that we should stop talking immediately was put forth and the phone was hung up....

My brain, though smart asks too many questions for my liking - Did I make a mistake? After all, there are not make people who speak my language...what if I lost out on a great friend??...what if I culdve really learnt a lot from this guy?...what if I missed out on loads of fun??? You see, theres not much my brain doesnt think of....

Oh and I forgot to mention he saw it fit to ask me out in the meanwhile and I saw it fit to  reciprocate by  literally bashing his teeth in just because I was angry with all guys in general.....and thats how we sweetly parted...

But you see, almost immediately since then, a new man came into my life...waving a broom and shaking a slipper....the great lawyer (drumroll please !!!)...and got me into a hole so deep that I needed a fireman without a collarbone to rescue me (ok, I know!)...but beggars cant be choosers...so out of the window went my indignation about being asked out..and the roles were reversed pretty quickly...I was pretty much like I dont care how you treat me, but someone please talk to me...

Of course now...he has a brain too right??? ...so he told me to fuck off and I took it pretty badly...now you know I really meant it when I said roles were reversed...fortunately, I had a life (albeit without people in it) so I lived on...

Two months later... lo & behold!  - hes in my city!!!

Hey, can we meet?
Lets do coffee?

How about dinner??

(Some people sure have this incredibly ability to pretend as if nothing was wrong)~!

Yeah right! Like in hell !!! Not even to save my life! And I looked the other way.... even on gtalk!

If you know me, you'll know this is no big deal...these things always happen to me (or I make them happen depending on which way you prefer to see it)...You see, someone once told me that I am the type to reach out to people only when I am "alone and in the dark"....whatever else I may be, I know thats not true now... and I prefer to leave it here....

But I know I did the right thing this time...

And heres the big back...

Sorry about the distasteful title which has been borrowed from Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas by the way - and thats a book everyone should read I say....wow, that rhymes...anyways, you should read the book to know what the title really means...27 is hardly an age to be world-weary no? But what else would you be, when the enormous futility of it all  is staring at you in the face???

I hate it when people make you convey bad stuff but if its anything good, they convey it themselves.. I am scared I am becoming grumpy and a complaint-box - now whens the last time we used that??But then why do I wake up everyday, ready to kill everyone? Do you just realize how much of restraint we have to exercise every damn day in so many things? I am scared of becoming fat...and I think Ive given up eating for good...I hate it when people dont take me seriously...but I refuse to give up colors and dress drab and adorn horn-rimmed glasses and start eating organic stuff and talking fluff...that also rhymes!....I refuse to talk about the weather and food, NO...try if you want and see me bite back...I hate all these sleazy men who at the tiniest chance try to flirt....!Someone told me I seem to be aging backwards...huh...if so, I think the termites ate my past ...ah thank God, I thought there'll be nothing light in this post :)...but if one more person says I should marry now because the "biological clock is ticking"....!!!

P.S: Heres advice that'll stand you in very good stead - now and always - dont be picky about clothes and food et al  - be picky only about what you feed your brain...cos thats all that counts dearie...Asleep at Heavens' Gate wouldve been a better title no? Okkkk I know!!!...just dont say it.

What could it be now?

My fave word is aw! Yup I know its not a word, but I love saying it, and not in a good way :)...Sting rocks, he really does. Be still my beating heart is all I tell myself these days, thanks to him :) But not the way he says it though...more like..be still (duh? do you need to say it)....my beating heart (seriously? no kidding???)...

Memo: I must avoid happy couples and if possible, happy people

Gawd...I am hopelessly inarticulate today....what do you say?

You might as well say no comments, cos I aint letting you anyway....